This Is Hard

I may be past the detox but I am still struggling with the deprivation. I made lots of goodies for others this past week and it was torturous. I do have a few treats for myself but I am bored and displeased with gluten free carob cookies and coconut macaroons. I did have some vanilla ice cream this week but I have to watch how much dairy I consume.

Although this is hard I have been diligent. I am sure there are good things going on in my body and in building my character that I just don't know about at this point. I am thankful to be through last week's kidney pain.

I did try two gluten-free bread products this week. They were bread and pizza crust. Both were from the same company, Kinninnick, and made with rice and tapioca. I was thrilled about the taste to say the least. I will hopefully find something that is more palatable soon.

I did realize that I could eat mozzarella though. That is exciting. It spruced up my scrambled eggs this morning a bit and that was a nice addition because I am bored with those too. I have tried to mix things up a bit but I am just so limited.

My ND told me we'd have to watch for me to lose more weight and having to eat like this I have no clue how I won't lose more weight! I guess if I am losing it because I am eating so well it is different than if I am losing it because my body is sick and stressed.

Although this is hard, I am thankful for God who sustains me. He has been faithful to encourage me and love me and I am hopeful. He has good plans for me...and if testing and training is what I need for those plans to come to fruition, then I am willing. Lord, forgive me for my downfalls in attitude.