4 Weeks Today

I haven't utilized this blog as an outlet like I thought I would. Time doesn't feel like it's flying by but today marks 4 weeks since the "diagnosis" and starting the IC diet. It has been a rough 4 weeks.

Two weeks ago I ended up in the urgent care clinic. I had a CT scan and learned that I have kidney stones. I also had an increased temp that day and my pH went up. That is a sign of kidney infection. My urinalysis came back clear, as well as blood tests. After a long "debate" with a not-so-compassionate and all-too-arrogant doctor we headed to the ND's office with an antibiotic prescript in hand. I hate antibiotics but at this point I knew that I needed to get this infection under control. The ND added some natural stuff to the mix and away we went. The worst part of all of it was the pain. I didn't take anything for it in fear of causing an IC flare up.

My mom came that weekend and stayed for a few days. I had a couple good days while she was here and then I had a flare up. I learned that I really need to stay away from sugar. Since we're suspecting kidney infection, which leads to pH issues, which leads to blood sugar issues, sugar intake isn't a good idea. It leaves me urinating constantly. So much for having some vanilla frosty.

So, a couple bad days, followed by a couple okay days, and then we had another whammy. Flu. And I think it is H1N1 since the symptoms are a dead ringer. I have to say it hasn't been as bad as it could be, but I am on day 5 of not feeling great and it is day 5 of fever for my son.

At this point I am really feeling like I am dangling on the end of my rope. The antibiotics have messed up my gut, I am absolutely exhausted, I am so disgusted with my limited food options, and I am fighting depression daily. I know that there is chemical/kidney connection to depression so at least I know its "not my fault" but it is there all the same and I am struggling.

I have been trying to spend quality time with God but I feel really alone right now.

This weekend I will get to see my bioscanner and I cannot tell you how much I hope he can pinpoint the cause of the infection. After the antibiotics we are quite certain my infection is not bacterial. Please, Lord, please, if it brings You glory, heal me.